Something has been bugging my conscience as of late.
I had a visitation with my daughter at the end of May. For context, in order to be peaceful, I agreed to graduating visitation, so this was supervised.
The person supervising, either through poor judgement or poor counsel, thought that they were going to be deceptive with something. What they may not realize is that the spidey senses are a touch more perceptive these days. I recognized the anomaly within about ten seconds. I stay frosty. I said nothing.
They started out by lying about separate personnel issues. I knew it was a lie but said nothing. But then, they took the deception up to eleven by saying, "sorry sir." I still said nothing.
I finished my visitation, which was wonderful, seeing the smile on my daughter's face. I stayed peaceful, for her sake. I even reiterated my objectives about my daughter moving forward, so that people could be reminded that I want God's best for her in a crappy situation.
None of this escaped my perception. My daughter was taught, passively, that lies and deception are permissible.
That was not okay. And it did not escape God's perception either. Yet I will stay peaceful, and forgive yet another transgression. It's just more work for me to do by His grace.
Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it. (Proverbs 22:6)
Ahh, I am so glad to be done with that season of my life.
Thankfully, my work towards moving from social media back to the 2000s with blogs and selfhosted stuff is going well. Over the past month or two, I've shut down just about all social media profiles that I can recall, except for Facebook due to the family connections. I'm sure there's others, but I have to scrub through old notes to find them and get rid of those as well.
With the advent of all this AI nonsense, dealing with a dude that was a security issue, and the absolute cesspool that most sites are due to the godless, liberalized brain rot that's infests the internet -- this isn't a step backward. The vast majority of the stuff is worthless. Dead Internet Theory has more or less graduated out of its size-theory diapers. I'm looking forward to moving on, where I can shout at the internet void and only the bots will hear me.
I started this a couple of years ago to chronicle my bible study materials, back when all I was doing was looking for jobs and constantly hoovering study materials. As I got busier (and other things unfortunately had my attention), I stopped writing because I tend to waste time trying to revise, revise, and make the "best" I could do. These days, I've finally come around to the fact that -- just dumping, stream of consciousness style, works. In fact, it can be better, depending on your objectives. That way, I can look back and see the progress I've made, that I wouldn't necessarily see otherwise.
So now, this is going to be a mix of my thoughts, my notes, bible study... it's going to effectively become one of those silly E/N blog sites from the early 2000s, minus the usual blasphemy that most of them contained.
Here's to the next season in my life.
There is a chasm between what I want and what I would die to self to do if it's God's plan.
Read between the lines to find out the true priorities, because I'm not going to spell out what should already be understood, if the soul is properly aligned.