On stewardship

I used to be decent at stewardship. At one point, I used to be known as the mediator. At some point I went off the rails and became cranky and obstinate, lobbing grenades from a bunker when attacked. I showed little grace and understanding of the underlying pathology causing the anger and despair, instead returning like for like. That is textbook poor stewardship and a poor example of Christ.

At some point soon, when the Lord permits me, I plan to take the Mastermind leadership course. It is going to be brutal, I know. But it is necessary in order to continue to grow in my walk.

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Mission.

Christian, you have a mission.

We live within a battleground. God has not saved us simply so we can live comfortably, self-centeredly. We have been conscripted into an army - we forget that. We have a mission, to take the message of His salvation and Lordship deep into enemy territory and give the message to the lost. We are called to live, work, and yes, even play - with that mission in mind.

Many of us have long deserted that mission, AWOL and living like we're simply existing and marking time in relative comfort until the Lord calls us home. Some have given up, either explicitly or subconsciously. Others have let the worldly concerns cloud our sight of the primary objective. There are a multitude of excuses. But there are no excuses.

Philippians 1:27-30. Ephesians 6:10-18. Joshua 5:13-6:27. The list goes on. This theme of conflict flows straight on through the Bible, that we are in a spiritual war - and that we are to take up arms in the fight, and that our fight will not be easy. The American church seems to have largely forgotten this, in our comfort. We will have pain, we will suffer, we will despair, we will feel like the tide of inevitability is crushing down upon us - but all of that is predicated on lies. It relies on the belief that this is the best you get. But there is so much more, waiting on the other side, for those faithful to the end.

Our mission is simple: to proclaim the faith of the gospel. We fulfill this mission through several means.

We walk consistently, in a manner worthy of the gospel, as sojourners from another place, for our citizenship is not of this world. This doesn't mean that you strive for perfection, for you will never attain that. This means that you earnestly pick up your cross and follow Christ. If you have erred, repent of it and be restored. If you stumble, pick yourself up again. The Father is mighty to forgive our transgressions, but if we ask for forgiveness only to turn directly back into them, we aren't going to be praised for it. We must deny self and walk humbly with our God.

We work together toward the same goal as a unit. Sin itself nearly makes this almost impossible, with all our infighting, squabbling, hardened hearts, gossip, and pet peeves. This should not be so. We should strive to lift one another up, as Christ lifts us up, to work together in fulfilling our mission. The mission is bigger than any one person, we must work cooperatively in order to do this. The unit can be sized anywhere from a family, to a church group, to the entire congregation. We can't do the work effectively if we are marred by the outworking of sin in our hearts. We must love one another and be reconciled to one another and to Christ. All pointing the same way.

We keep our eye on our brethren, rendering aid when they are injured and providing correction when we err. We might know the outcome of the war, but that does not give us license to ignore the consequences of the battles. If we see our brethren in need, or even the civilians of the mission field, we love them as Christ loves us by helping where we can, how we can, within reason. We are to love God with all our soul, heart, mind, and strength, and we are to love our neighbor as ourselves.

But never forget the mission. Don't get complacent from the comfort. Don't hold the grudge of sin in your hearts. Don't let secondary issues cause you to ignore your brethren. Instead, deny yourself, take up your cross, and follow Christ, and remember that the way he is walking is not the wide, well-trodden, easy path. It is the narrow, winding, craggy, difficult path, that leads to the narrow gate, to where we call Home.


In my Stubbornness You Left Me

Lord, I look upon the my house
In its ruin and its desolation
I recognize my iniquity
My rebellion against you
When I would pray to turn away
Yet cling to the comfort of complacency

In my stubbornness you left me
To teach me lessons I would not learn
And the consequence is laid bare
The chances you gave me
Squandered at the expense of my charge

O wretched, sinful man that I am!
My transgression destroys the other half of my flesh
I pass it on to my descendants
The land groans in hatred!

But you, my Lord, my savior
Plucked me once out of the ways of death!
Twice you have given me redemption
Thrice you told me, "no, my work for you is not done"
You mend my heart, you renew my mind
In your mercy you restore me!

Lord, I call out to you
I ask for one more thing
O wretched man that I am,
What standing do I have to petition you
When every day I stumble again
Will you not hear the groaning of my heart's desire?
Will you turn your face from the wrenching of my soul?

Your love is boundless, your mercies daily anew
Blot out my iniquity, drive it from my bones
You hear the groanings of heart
And wrenching of soul.
Your steadfastness does not abandon me
I see your works, I perceive your grace
You do not cast me away
You strengthen me, you refine me
You alone sustain me.